So it has been a week or so since the merge of the company and have realized that things are definitely going to change.  I am trying to be optimistic about it, but people around here are not optimistic which is fighting my optimism.  I want to believe that we will be around for a lot more years........ and we will!!!!!
Went back to the Rheumy Tuesday and he is going to put me on more Methotrexate as of today, depending on how my liver functions are.  Then after 6 weeks of that, he will start lowering my prednisone again.  The pain in my shoulders and  hips are a dull ache.  Just enough to not want to stand too long and not able to get too much done at home.  I try to do everything in small steps. (Step 1, seperate the laundry, step 2, put the seperate piles in baskets, step 3, bring the baskets to the door, step 4, get the detergent, etc and 1 basket outside to the laundry and put one load in, etc. etc. etc.)  It takes forever, but it finally gets done.  I have tried to get the cats to help, but they just lay there and watch!!!  After each step, I am ready for a nap!!!!

I am going to start this again and see how far I get.  It has been a tough week and I need to get it down in writing to get it out of my head. Now that we have merged with the new company, 11 more people were laid  off and I never though they would even pay attention to our little division.  They did, and it wasn't pretty.  It was scary.  We have spent the rest of this week learning all the new things involved with this new company.  Next week we will find out about our new benefits (or maybe lack of).  It really is depressing to think about all of this.  They did send us a small video about the effects of change and the steps you go through.  Well, I am still at depression.  A lot of good people were let go and most of them were in the age range of 55-65.  These people are going to have trouble finding a job and it just isn't fair.  Ah well!  I suppose we all need to prepare for this kind of thing.

The weekend is almost here and I will try to take my mind off all of this.