A month or so has gone by and the PMR is doing better, the job is coming along, my family is all healthy and happy and by all rights, I should be happy as a clam.  I don't have any major problems down the horizon so I should be looking at things with a glass half full attitude.  Unfortunately, that is not the case.  I don't know why, but I don't feel happy, I don't act happy, and I don't know what to do about it. I am going to speak to the Rheumy next week to see if this  is part of the side effects of the medication, so if it is, I can just ignore it.  If not, I need to find a way to get myself out of it!!  Is it part of turning Social Security age?  Maybe.

I know, I could force myself to start dating again!!!  That would probably depress me more.... since there are so many wackos out there.  Well, maybe not dating.......... but how about forcing myself to get out of the house on a regular basis.  I know I started a New Year's Resolution to do something fun at least once a week.  Didn't happen when I got sick and all I wanted to do is sleep.  Maybe it is time to start that.  I will see if that works!!